Her name is...

Her name is Waverly

They say she has no brain activity and my dear friend and her husband must decide if and when to shut down her life support...It's heartbreaking

The labor was fine until Waverlys heart rate started to go down really low during contractions.. She said they had her pushing for a while and then they decided to use forceps for the rest of the delivery.. She came out not breathing and a huge amount of people in the room..Then she was wisked away with my dear friend left with no crying baby..She doesn't even know how much she weighs...It really sucks

I found out about her pregnancy not even two weeks after losing Micah and I spent the night bawling my eyes out. Finding out that someone else got to carry life and be excited about something that ended so tragic for me just hit me like a ton of bricks. In the beginning I would avoid asking about the pregnancy and to be honest I think she knew that and she understood but eventually I guess you could say I came around. I really started to care and love the idea of getting to be with a baby again even if it wasn't mine. I became so excited for her and her husband this being their first baby..They were so ready to be perfect parents..There were a few things that I didn't budge on like I didn't go baby shopping for her shower. I went in on three big group gifts which I was only responsable for handing over my portion 0f the money. I tried to go back to baby r us and the baby section @ the Bay but it was awful... I also never felt her belly or felt Waverly kick...That one is easy but yet really hard to explain..but I would guess you may somewhat get it..

How could this happen again?? This is so mean and so cruel...Shit!! She and her husband are beside themselves with grief, shock and disbelieve..It's just so horrible and unfair..You know even tho it has happened to me this still caught me off guard and what I think it comes down to is babies are not suppose to die..This is completely unnatural ...

So here we are trading places. She helped keep my head above water not even 9 months ago and now it's my turn to return the favor....This really sucks