I just wanted to drop in to say i'm doing okay ... There were a few times I wanted to write but my mind was a complete blank ...
I can't beleive it's almost a year since I lost Micah.. Where has the time gone?? one minute time was standing still and now here I am in the last month where a year ago Micah was still alive kicking around and i was complete oblivious to what was going to happen and be my life from now on.
I feel really weird and uneasy about this month .. my last month where a year from today I was happy ...genuinly happy. This year has been a complete nightmare but yet i'm not ready to let it go..how silly is that??
I sometimes think i'm going to make myself ill with how bad I want and miss Micah .. I'm afraid I have forgotten how she felt ...I stare at the pics of her and I .. of me hold her hand and holding her and I feel so lucky to have done that ...I miss my monkey so bad it's unbearable..
My live sucks without her but all in all I guess i'm okay ...
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Of course you miss her, and I totally get why you would want to hang on to this month... but this year is not the end of anything except (I hope) the worst of the grief. I wish you peace.
I'm thinking of you sweetie. This is a road no mom should ever have to follow.
I am so, so glad to see an update from you.
You can borrow the bandaid I have on my heart. It seems to do the trick. <3 <3
You guys are so sweet..Thank you
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